Lovin' from a distant

Salam et bonsoir mes amies! 

image is for illustration only.
Ignore the hideous slippers and poor editing skills.

Bonjour! 

so based on the image above, imma talk about the 'L' word..

Not lesbian, lilo(me cat) or lalalitamplom..but LOVE~

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Yea, Love!

have you guys ever experienced LOVE?

of course you do, right? Love for your Creator, papa, mama, siblings and friends!

But am not talking bout that Love, imma talk bout LOVE love..got it, love?

yea, that love..<--lil tongue twister right here, polish ur ENGLISH skill!

Ok, let's get back to the topic.... LOVE..

You guys had been in love, I, ME MYSELF, HAD BEEN IN LOVE.. It's a feeling that everyone LOVE and HATE at the same time.. especially when you're loving someone secretly, and by secretly i mean, without the "person" knowing that you have feelings for him or her.. *this exclude your closefriends and extremely close family members* :D

It's very hard for someone to LOVE someone secretly, right? it's killin' us from inside and out! I feel ya,bro!

It's tormenting, nerve-wrecking and toilet-callin'! <-- i choose not to elaborate more on this.. my Closefriends understand this :P

especially for girls, confessing to someone is a taboo for us! Boys, seriously, even if this is the 50th century, girls will always wait for u guys to make the moves.. seriously.. even me myself dont know why, but maybe it's just our nature.. :) maybe there are girls that are wayyyyyyyy to brave to express their feelings for someone, but that 'girl' is definitely not me! imma shy person..freakishly shy,to be exact, in matters like this..! -only-

but i didnt just keep it to myself! i did give him some hints/signals..but in my case, the guy are always so clueless.. =..= that's sad.. left me alone in a lone-drama.. however, it's also my fault though, cuz im wayyyyy tooo friendly with everyone, even guys, i love making friends and if i happen to like one of them, i cant really show it, cuz i dont know how! T^T and usually, my guyfriends will always stay as my guyfriends.. =.=  a firnd of mine once told me ,"people love being around you because they felt comfortable talking and hanging out with you, that's why in the end, getting used to that feeling, they'll just look at you as their good girl-friend" .. so the problem is..i am too friendly??? what is wrong with this society! *facepalm* 

Here i am, definitely NOT HAPPY being in the LONE-DRAMA

But there's one guy before (Mr. M), he seemed 'alerted', but being a gentleman he was (and still is), he rejected me with the most gentle way as possible,.and we remain friends till now! Good friends to be exact!  i never did confess my feelings to him!(and i thank ALLAH i didnt!) just plain signals and hints.! and after being 'emotionally' rejected, i wasnt that devastated. I felt nothing actually, the feelings, they'd just...GONE! whenever i look at him, i just dont feel the same feelings that i had before.  It's  the same as when you were about to throw a fit, when you're totally angry at someone, you tend to hold the anger right? but after a while, after you are all calm and able to think rationally, and you thought to yourself, "thank God, i didnt ran an amok on that guy! phewww! if i did, things could get UGLY!"  :) imagine if i were to express my feelings to him, and he rejects me, wouldnt that be embarrassing? i'll be flyin' to other PLANET if possible.. just bye bye.. pack me bags and just be goneeeee,....

So, to clear things off, for MR.M, i dont have any feelings for him anymore, some friends they dont really believe it whenever i told them this..but it is true.. I lost that feeling longgg time ago. why? cause i learned to forget things that would never be mine.. rather than being all sad and wrap yourself in the sea of sad songs and tears. Just stay positive, Allah had someone 'reserved' especially for you, Insha Allah! :)

So, whenever, i fall for someone, i'll just keep em a secret (again, closefriends are excluded, i just cant keep a secret from them..hahaha).. but i'll give the guy some *kinda* obvious signals and hints that i'm interested in him . Depends on the guy's alertness,though, or i'll be in a lone-drama again..*sigh* 

rather than i go all BRAVE and so so-called-21stcentury-woman, i just keep it to myself and i'll pray to Allah, hoping that he's the one, and if he's not the one, i ask Him to help me forget him slowly and painlessly, and that Allah will keep me away from being too INTO that guy or i'll suffer a worst heartbreak ever.. hahah.. it's true though! :) I put my faith 100% on Allah SWT, He knows what's best for his creations.. 

So girls, (muslimah), take a veryyyyy good care of your dignity and stay positive, oK? Trust me, if you truly love yourself, a good Adam will truly loves you too in the future..inshaAllah! so,If you love one of the Adams, turn to Allah for the best solutions and answers.. and u can also follow my 'methods' in dealing with crushes..hehe..and girls, just be yourself ok? dont ever try to be someone else just because you wanna impress someone that you like.. if they happen to like you, they had fallen for the 'fake' you! you wouldnt want that to happen right? for me, i want someone to love me for who i am, who i really am.. but if he asks me to change for my own good, that i'm ok with..means that he cares about you.. :) but i would never EVER change my true self in order to grab ones heart. NEVER. so even if im with my crush, i'll just be myself, i'll never try to do something taht is not me.. that is why guys cant really detect if i'm into him or not.. cuz my character never changed even if im with the one that i fell for! :) cool huh? needs a lottt of practices and works. -_-

This is me and my character doesnt  depends on my feelings for you.. Choomie is Choomie.. :)

"mencintai dalam diam adalah lebih baik"
Loving someone secretly is always better.. :)

Assalamualaikum et bonne nuit!